"Don't Judge Me!"

So I thought about something today.

Most girls that I've been affiliated with...done anything with...etc....Sheesh in some cases girls who I simply liked and they felt the same...

We have beef. ALL of them. Except...1? maybe 2? And one of those 2 pulled a bullshit stunt I didn't appreciate...It's in her best interest to not turn this into trading shots cause you don't have enough miss (smh that was a lil fiery pardon me)...

So...lets go down the foulest shit I've done to females (Imma regret this but i need to vent)

1) Only When Ur Lonely.

I was out with her and her friend. We had a "thing". She decides to flirt with the waiter hardbody the whoolleee night(she knows him as @ the time she worked at said restaurant) and basically ignores me. Then she was talking shit to her friend when I wasnt looking or when i dipped out of the area. So...shockingly when we get away from Mr Waiter Man...she gonna try and cuddle in Walmart. Reggie Bush stiff arm for her. G'day Miss. Obviously...you can tell she deserved this .

2) Valentines Day Massacre

Back in HS...I had a sloppy crush on this girl("Z"). I asked her to be my Valentine (V-Day = my birthday) cause i dug her like that. She was like "I'll get back to you". Now mind you , her locker was DIRECTLY across from mine. She OF COURSE never got back to me. So me? I was obviously hurt...this is a blog...no time to feign hardbodyness (lmao). Before we continue on...let it be known...that whole situation hurt me ALOT more than I put on. I bounced back quick but the residual effects were there.

But I quickly had an idea! I had female friends who I was A)dumb close w/ and meant alot to me B) didn't have a Valentine or C) both. So I said...fuck it...lemme look out for people who ACTUALLY give a fuck about my feelings. So I did. Got most of em flowers except one (we'll get back to that). On Valentines , I gave one of said girls a rose right? And one of the dudes in the class ( we were friends but imma keep it SO 100...we had a rivalry over the original Valentines chick)...he blurts out "you forgot someone" talking about "Z". I say loudly in the middle of the classroom

"NO I DIDN'T."

Shock and horror spread across the room, considering a good number of people knew about the situation. After this , shorty put her head on her desk and just hid her head rest of the class. Did I feel good? I FELT GREAT. Lmao. Am I a sick bastard for feeling that way? Probably. To wrap this story up , a certain girl who liked me and was a part of this went to her and said "Rob got me this. What did you get?" "Z" spazzes out like "Robert can get you whatever the fuck he wants. I don't care!" or something to that effect. Yes...this is still funny to me.

And for the girl I didn't get flowers. I got her chocolate. I remember her telling me no one ever got her something for Valentines. So...I got her that and she appreciated it. So I did the right thing after all!

3) Swim in this Drink Boo

So "H" shows up. She comes to visit and chill with me @ my Apt. We are friends...but she has a man...and something almost happened...on a few occasions. So...obviously we have a weird relationship since the situation was never addressed ( A very wise girl told me COMMUNICATE.) .I was also told we would discuss our situation but...that never happened.She likes to try and take shots at me and toy with my emotions cause she KNOWS what I want and continues to put me in situations that would infer I'd get it. Even going as far as to say slick shit while in compromising positions. Welcome to Cocktease Land. First Stop on this tour is Blue Balls Ave. followed by Frustration St.

We happen to be going outside w/ my neighbor and this dude she kicks it with. I have a drink (hawaiian punch lemonberry + orange juice +vodka or gin + ice ...blend that joint...smoothie...its banittles try it) ANYWAYS! She decides to slap my cup as I drink it...on purpose. Yes. I watched her eyes follow my cup up to my face...then she slapped it...spilling the slushy goodness onto me and the floor. I'm drunk and heated. So what did i do? Splashed her with the drink like that chick did GUCCI!!! It was prolly half to 75% of the cup. She had on a white shirt. She had on some fly ass kicks too . Whatever. Shoulda thought of that before you felt like being a comedian. She also later admitted to hitting my cup on purpose. That totally extinguished any chance of me ever apologizing.

We still cool to this day but...that was me tired of the disrespect. I'm a mild mannered dude (well some people say I'm very angry guy but w/e). I like to party , have fun like anyone else.But when you do some dumb OD shit...what can you really expect? Plus I HATE when girls hit my cup. HATE. IVE HATED SINCE BEFORE I EVEN DRANK ALCOHOL!!!!!!

4) Facebook is THE DEVUH!!

Aight ....so I got a bad habit of doin girls IN on Facebook. Now one might think..."what kind of childish shit is that? Grow the F up Rob"....and you'd probably be right. I usually dont lash out and handle grown-up problems like a child. But guess what? These aren't grown up problems...this is kiddy shit. So lemme be 13 years old about things sometimes...I think I've earned it. Onto the point.....

No Boyfriend Huh?

Aight....so last summer there was a certain someone I was messing with...who I've mentioned on here before. We had an agreement that seein other people was fine....It was a summer thing and everyone was cool.It was understood we were both single and chillin'. So...me assuming she doesn't have a man...I'm thinking shit is all good (Could never mess with another man's girl...AT THAT TIME.)

I'm surfing one of my top 3 overly visited sites (aka Facebook) and I see her status. She makes a comment on her stat regarding "my boyfriend looks just like him." Him....being Chris Brown. So......I've been doing inappropriate shit to bootleg CB's girl....The hell kind of life am I leading. I think to myself..."Boyfriend??...wtf?"...

So....next time we link up...I do the uncomfortable task of asking her about dude.

...."So ...lemme ask you...just be honest...do you have a man?"

""*pauses...no...not anymore...he annoys me...I'm mad at him""


She said all of this....without looking in my direction.Now in my mind...I knew she was lying. But...I didn't care. I never cared. I just thought it was wack she chose to lie about something so minor. If she can't be honest...that creeps me out like...what else might she be covering up(mmm the slippery slope argument my favorite)?

But the head without the ears....did not give a damn about her newfound affinity for lying. So...that day after she did what she did (NOPE NOT TYPING OUT DETAILS) She's showing me something on her phone.....Whats on her phone background?

Some yellow dude. Looks nothing like her..he is not fam.Cousin don't work because...who the hell puts their opposite sex same age cousin on they phone background?(No West Virginia). I think..."OH SHIT SHE REALLY DOES HAVE A MAN!".....

Now the first thought that goes through my head is damn...you foul as hell Rob. And so is she.

This lasted about 3 seconds.

Next emotion was...this is hilarious...he loves her and...shes with me on the side. I'm BF #2....maybe # 3...i had no idea lmao. She's lying...just to stay around me.


Damn.

Now this is the first time I've ever been in a situation like that. If you haven't noticed , I think kinda highly of myself(my arrogance is blown out of proportion) but....this kinda changed things. Girls will go this far...for me? Thus "she has a boyfriend" became less and less of a deterrent(here's another unfortunate truth...most girls are not HALF as happy in their relationships as they project)

So.... maybe she didn't deserve how I did her. In one of my FB notes I said something to the effect of "I remember everything people say. Even things like "I don't have a man" When I know you do. Poor guy."

SMH. She responded then said some BS like "Ill never joke about having a man again!" (please just come clean no one even cares) I also exposed some other shit in that same note but you gotta be IN THE LOOP to know all that. Not some shit Imma comment on willy-nilly....

With this said...she shouldn'tve lied...because she didn't have to. I kept it 100 about everything...and she chose to keep it 45...for no real reason.

Not In MYYYY House.

So...one night at my apt at school (Dez and Steve I SEE YA) We happened to be playing a game called Dirty Hearts. Now for the uninitiated, Dirty Hearts is a game where you draw from a deck until you get a card with Hearts on it. Whatever number that corresponds with that card is the number of people who get to ask you a question. Since we are disgusting individuals , every question was of the sexual variety.

A certain someone draws. She gets asked to rank the dudes in the room in order of attractiveness. Now me and this girl have history. A very..rough history. So I knew fom the gate I was gonna hear some bullshit. And ...of course I did. She ranked me deadddd last. Now I'd say 60 percent of the room new about me and this girl , so they know she was just tryna shit on me . What she didn't understand was this: I'm Rob. I don't do that get rattled shit. I simply said..."Well you frontin but...ok." And moved on.

I get this response.

"Well you're an asshole. Maybe if you were nicer you'd be more attractive I'd rank you higher."

See but...I don't care where you rank me publicly. Cause I know where you rank me inside sweetie. Plus...this was based on looks...not personality. So whether I slapped your mom up then used your toilet w/o flushing...or if i drove ya grandma to the supermarket every Saturday makes no difference. Plus, everyone already knew I was an A-Hole.

So she draws again towards the end of the game. Now she gets asked "What are the chances that you'd ever get into any sort of relationship with Rob again?" (Inappropriate Question? Yeah kinda but whatever)

She answers 25%. then goes onto an anti -Rob spiel in front of some people that I don't really know. Don't you dare try to throw me under the bus in the presence of strangers....in my apartment.That was our business; you're making me look bad when I've gone out of my way to not trash you publicly when your very own friends shit on you every time I say your name. At this point I'm so upset (and drunk) that I can barely speak. I force out a goodbye and hug and get my ass in the bed (I believe that's what I did).

Fast forward to the next day. I'm coming back from some party with my dude in his car. I'm recapping to him what happened the previous night and getting angrier and angrier as I go on.

"Yo son I'm heated. Is she serious? Like I don't wanna be a child about it but I wanna vent. I should go black out and put the shit on Facebook."

"I think you should do it."

I sat back. Thought for a couple minutes. Then said ....Aight. Dapped my dude up...hopped out the car....went in my crib (mind you it was 6 am) ...Logged into Facebook and went OFF.

I actually went back on Facebook to find the exact status in question.

Ravishing Rob Seabrook is an asshole. But you still hit me up at midnight askin what im doin. You still come here to see my roommate...then sneak over to my room. You....still cant let go of flashbacks from 2 yrs ago that arent happening ever again....and you watch my bedroom light to see if im up...but you dont think im attractive. Stay Classy Norfolk!

UGLY. AND it was Easter. F'd up that girls dinner. She OBVIOUSLY hit me up on Facebook Chat...which lead to me saying things such as " You know what? F this conversation" and ignoring the essay length message she sent me.I'm having a damn near hour long plus argument...on the internet; I began to feel stupid so I ended that BS . Now we on a "Hi and Bye" basis and that's COOL as HELL with me. The day I accept disrespect where I lay my head at is the same day I actually hit the gym (aka NEVER.)

Random Shots

• Told a girl she must enjoy sucking meats after she confessed to getting her mouth skeeted in. Later apologized online. Her response made me wish I didn't. Now I'm not saying sorry for anything lmao...blame her.
• Didn't dance with my prom date a majority of the night cause I was pissed at her. Def didn't go near her till like the 6th song.
• Didn't tell a female friend that a dude who she was diggin was only out to smash her insides out. Only didn't speak on it cause i felt to blow the whistle on "competition" is dishonorable.
• Pushed up on a girl's friend right in front of her...because the original girl was *ahem* stuntin so in my mind showing "yo I will GET AT YO FRIEND" would speed up the process...this didn't really work it just made her fight for my attn more...HA! (smh)
• Got hit with the "I Love You" text message and changed shucked and jived my way out of having to say I love You back. See? I'm not you lames. Talmbout "I had to say I love you back Rob! I had no choice!" Yes you did...if you don't mean it don't say it; the female heart is delicate.Toying around with that L word will get you killed or stalked...or both.
  

I think that's about it for all my wrongdoings. With this said....you've noticed a recurring theme....about 95% of these girls deserved it lmao. I'd also do almost all of thse over again. Some things I wish I handled differently but...ehh not really .But don't get me wrong! I'm not a TOTAL dickface. I care. It's just most people don't give me a reason to. I could've made a "good things Rob has done for women" post but...no one wants to read that shit. Plus that reeks of "Rob is online tooting his own horn".

Until next time (aka sometime soon)!

The Affair.

When I was younger ( I really don't know how old I was) , my mom once told me I don't love anything. I don't care about anyone thing enough to actually put forth the effort.

Now you know how when someone very important to you....tells you some REAL shit? Me...I'm a relatively angry person so naturally...I was pissed off (on the inside my pops is 6'3 260 and my mom will warm me up before he whoops my young ass).

It made me mad but....It was true...very true. I've gone through life surviving off natural talent..charm..and humor until recently. I lacked the determination to go hard and work towards any "goal". I was a lil more than above avg in school so...really it didn't affect me like that. I just didn't have a passion like other kids.

And I've done every activity out there....African/Modern Dance..Basketball...Little League Baseball...Shotokan(Karate)...Electric Guitar....I even had a lil poetry stint when I was youngn but I hung that up (I should pick it back up...Nothing is more beautiful than fitting words together...)

I was..aight at the worst in all of said activities but...I just didn't care.

On a whole though, that one quote from my moms describes me fully...even to this very moment. I love alot of things for a little while then I quickly become bored. Good example...college radio. I lived and breathed this shit when I first started. I CARED. I was passionate about it and felt disrespected by people who were involved but did radio for other reasons (a lust for attention , girls who giggle and say "OMG DONT YOU HAVE A SHOW?!?!", people who are obsessed with hearing their own voice). But after a while , the strain , the stress, things that went on behind the scenes that pissed me off...they wore on me. Left me jaded.I'm 3 semesters in and chasing a high so to speak ; I dont feel the way i felt sophomore year when it all started , and I'm unsure if I ever will. What bothers me the most is it comes through in my show; radio is unforgiving. If you don't care, everyone can tell immediately.

But....even though our relationship is bumpy as hell , and shes not making me chicken rice like she used to , and she nags every Monday and Wednesday at 6-8PM....I still love her punk ass. I double majored...for radio. I applied to an XM internship...for radio. I'm serious about this....I'm just starting to feel like I hit my ceiling as far as college radio is concerned. I'd like to spread my wings at WODU but i feel like I can't. I also only feel that a couple people really care about this....A few serious people and a bunch of people who are bullshitting...how could i not feel tired??? Exasperated??? Can you really blame me???



See mom??? I finally love something.

Have a Chilled Shot Of Piss!

BLOAW!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been MIA for uh...a lil over 2-3 months now....SMH. Trust...I've been tryna post for a while.

Just loggin in and staring at the blog like "0_0 type something semi relevant....please...something.." and all that comes out is titty references and school complaints -sigh-

I owed this to y'all to get a post off. My last post was depressing as shit ; didnt want y'all to think I offed myself or anything....

With that said in my absence...A couple things have occurred...Spent New Years Day with someone I'm not counting on seeing soon (if ever again :\) due to her goin back to school....Met alot of people...said alot of crazy things...was drunk more times than i planned....lmao

I also turned 21. Shit was anticlimactic but I made up for it the next weekend so everyone wins!

This wasn't amusing...this was the warm up post...Get out my face...

-turns to next post-

oh heres some videos....let em sink in



^MF DOOM...not for everyone but...watch anyway



^Yep...benzino bum ass....song is nice though



^Janet - Rock With U....song and video are SILLY

and that is all....

Turn Out The Lights.

I talk about women on here too much. So...for today's installment we gonna see if i can avoid that topic....


About 2 years ago , during my EXTRA tumultuous freshman year , I came home for winter break. I start having a conversation with my mom , and somehow one of my fatal flaws comes up.


My entire life , I have fled the spotlight.


Now...a good 2 years later...it's still a problem.

Now I know...most people dont have this issue. Most people don't get close enough to the eyes of many to ever feel that way.


As cocky as i may be ( a quality about me that gets totally overblown), i HATE talking about myself. Girls(that don't count as a mention) , the radio show , anything I got done at school, sports accomplishments...nothing. I hate talking about it.It's to the point I'd rather discuss shit I suck at than discuss my strengths.

I'm a grown ass man....but i JUST stopped taking compliments in such a childish way. My face used to get hot , I looked down or away , then I fumbled out a thanks. This was my routine for everything from "that was a great speech" to "youre gorgeous" (to this day i think she was trippin that night...GORGEOUS?).

But why is it??

Because Im insecure. I'm insecure as shit...and so are you. I just choose to say it. I used to get tortured in elementary and middle school. Ugly , clumsy , whatever....i heard that shit. At this point in my life , I know I'm far from either of those insults ; but the residual damage doesn't go away. When people show love , 75 % of the time I'm waiting for the sneak jab/punchline. Issue is....most of the love shown is legit. My cynical viewpoint doesn't give a damn about all that though.

I've come along way. Nowadays I just don't care ; I go where anyone can see me and i do what i do. If anyone feels any sort of way...they either can go die or keep it to themselves. Still I feel limited ; as if i could be so much better in every facet of my life. My radio show should be alot better than what it is ; I should play alot more ball and work out more;I would say I should go harder in school but...I did go hard...I just happened to fail a class I REALLY needed.


Hopefully in all this time on winter break....I figure out what my next drastic move needs to be....

I know this post was a little all over the place...I'd apologize but this is my E-diary...if i wanna have a lil brain vomit on the page....thats life.

Streetlights - Kanye West

Sums my feelings up almost perfectly.

See y'all later....


EDIT: this post is slightly depressing already but I had to state this...

RIP to dude who died from the ODU football team (Osric Robinson)...He asked me and my dude(or maybe it was just my dude...iforgot) about some stuff we were doin in the gym...Seemed like a cool cat...Saw him around multiple times.

What gets me about it is ....i don't even know fam like that. But to know he's gone forever like that...is wild. Caught me off guard. Had me thinking about the mortality of those around me that I love...and my own.A lot of my fellow Monarchs are hurt by his death , which tells me he was a good dude. All of y'all hold ya head...

With that said....say everything you must while you still have the breath to do it. Don't stress over wack shit....Live cause tommorrow ain't promised. RIP to that man.

Hot Pursuit...

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW....it's been a while...alot has happened...imma recap and point out some things...whatever yo...WHATEVER

First Weekend Back At School
.......Mad freshmen girls came....some left(they were smart and musta felt the debauchery in the air)....kings is the devil...i was SLOPPY...almost did some SUPER reckless shit(if you know...you KNOW lmao)....was very difficult to look those who were present in the eyes afterwards...that liqour make people expose body parts...oh and give lapdances....dont play Kings with us if you not tryna lapdance miss...lmao...happens EVERY GAME!...SMH @ us

Second Weekend Back....
....Real interesting....I went to the APhiA Pajama Party (aka the only real relevant webb jam all year). I came to quite a few realizations.

REALIZATION NUMBER ONE!

I'm getting old. Like I'm walking around (FOR THE RECORD...I WAS GOIN INNNNNN)...and first dance was some freshman chick. She was cute or whatever so i inquired as to what her name was. Regardless....shorty danced with me for...5 straight damn songs. Like im lookin at my roommate with the "what the hell/save me" face on. Night went on....and im noticing how many freshmen were in there...then i started to feel weird. I mean I'm only 20 but I've never really been attracted to girls significantly younger than me and have been drawn to older girls (shoutout to my almost Valentine last yr ;)). So for me to walk around the sweatbox that is the Webb Center , in some damn PJs and a wifebeater bending over girls who dont remember that the Black Ranger on Power Rangers used to be black....CMON NOW. How the hell am i expected to feel? I knew in my heart I can't come back to the Pajama Jam next year cause its no longer "me". I'mma leave that to the underclassmen because in reality , thats really a good look for them; I'm 21 in a couple months...I cant even do it.


REALIZATION NUMBER TWO!!!!!!
So I also came across someone who I....how do I put this...liked at the same time that I was "talking"(wtf does that even mean) to someone else I REALLY liked. Now here the questions arise....such as....why didn't you just try and court both of em?....Look i was 18 and my mind (nor my understanding of women...) was that far advanced. And before the "nigga you a fraud" chants come out ; I reallyyyyyyyyy liked "her" (nah im not typing your name); I'm not tryna front like i wasn't deep into it. It's just the other girl...like i knew she was interested wayyyyy back when i just got to ODU but she got lost in the shuffle. From time to time we cross paths and when we do....I'd be a liar if i said i don't think about what could've happened. I all but let it go since she stays in a relationship....WELP!

She popped up that night...we exchanged smiles said what up and kept moving....i saw her like 3 songs later and went to WORK(lmao)....the whole time I'm thinking ....did i pick the wrong person 2 years ago? When you break it down...and see that nothing really became of me and my first college crush....Could it be that choice bit me in the ass?...Yes I was having life changing epiphanies as an ass is moving all over me...ONLY ROB...ONLYYYY ROB. And it's -looks at date- October 16th; for this to still be so fresh in my mind should tell you more than enough :\...I just don't see her enough. If i did....I'd let it be known what I want it to be....


ENOUGH OF THAT SAPPY SHIT!
After them first 2 weeks plenty of amusing shit happened....did a couple episodes of the Rob Report(the radio show shameless self promo coming soon).....The show's kinda popular...which is unfortunate cause I have not been giving it my all and I need to step it up without a doubt...I almost feel like im screwing the viewers over...The shows building steam real fast. I knew it would happen but...not like this. So thats an adjustment in itself; I'm far from shy but I'm kinda to myself at times...the fact that people I don't know recognize me from the show and express their appreciation...thats wild to me lol. I always feel like...ME???...The show's that ill to y'all? Im in disbelief of my own talents but thats kinda how I am with most things...With that said i appreciate ALL the love (and the hate but I really don't get any...other than this one girl who said me and Steve look like scrubs....whatever that means :|) Sllighty unrelated....i met Estelle and Trav from GCH that was fun and my Estelle crush has only worsened...holla...also got to see them (and the Roots perform)...great experience...

This post is long as hell so lemme cut the blabbering....I'll prolly post in a few more days I'll try and get more consistent....lemme give yall something to listen to/watch....





GCH - Shoot Down The Stars....i thought GCH was corny till i saw em live and i was dead wrong...song/video is pretty deep you should be able to feel it...



I play this song to death on my show....some girl said it was wack....she deserves to get jabbed in her ear....with a penis.

GONE TILL A LATER DATE!(not forever)

Someone has to be honest.

DISCLAIMER: I'M NOT A BITCH...-sigh-

So um....I went to go see an old friend on Thursday. The plan was to watch movies...Purple Rain to be exact (lmao go ahead hate on it...prince is cooler than you your parents and everyone else you love).....It was fun it went well...She even bought me food!(Good look yo I owe you one...) But at some point we were wrestling and i flipped her over....I was helping her up and it hit me like a Mike Tyson uppercut....

I might be diggin her more than I thought.

Rob:"You good?"
Her: "Yeah I'm ok"


We both smiled and ...FROZE.
At this point I'm thinkin...oh what the hell...but i didn't do anything....for the first time in a whiiiiileeeeeeee I couldn't make a move on a female. I rode home all distraught (shoutout to the LIRR). I couldn't figure out what was stopping me....

It was...myself. She is a really really cool friend and has put me onto alot of shit I wouldn't learn otherwise about women and life in general. The thing that creeped me out was realistically 2 things. One is normal, second is some total "Rob is 20 going on 43" shit.

NUMBER ONE!
The percentage of me getting rejected (albeit in my opinion...i feel it was pretty low..no humility down here at DMR) was enough to make me not wanna do it. You ever have a friend who likes you try to take it there and say they diggin you or worse...try something? And you not feeling it?...Relationship RUINED. That shit never gets fixed and you look at them different FOREVER.I've lived this multiple times; needless to say me and those females aren't as cool as we used to be if even at all. I value our friendship pretty highly...highly enough that I'd rather not have to wish things could be normal again after I try somethin...And that sounds super lame....especially coming from me cause really??? Youre my female friend??? You gimme the opportunity...and i if i think you're cute, I'm gonna take you up on it(and some of yall, im tryna get you to throw me the alley but you're being difficult for no reason -_-).Oddly enough most of my female friends are kinda cute lol...and lets get THIS straight...i am a STRANGER to the friend zone...I've broken out of it , rarely been put in it , put in it by girls i didnt and never wanted lmao...IN SHORT...I'm no lame...

NUMBER TWO!
Even if she did go along with it....now what? We talk on the regular....we both have egos and i personally feel we'd both give each other space to not "look like a fiend". We are at somewhat similar points in our lives when it comes to the opposite sex, the difference mainly being girls just (as in 2-4 yrs) started actually liking/taking me seriously. I'm gettin kinda popular with the ladies, she has plenty fans/groupie niggas....I do not want her to look at me like "another dude". And I'm sure she doesn't wanna be put into the "girls chasing Rob" list. This just makes it awkward and the dynamic of the relationship will change...and theres no way around that.

Now...don't get me wrong. This isn't some OH DAMN sort of revelation. I know i liked her a little for a while now. I expressed it just to throw it out there and that was that , no big deal , no real changes between us. Far as i know , theres a mutual attraction. It's just I never expected to have to pull some ol corny "BUT SHES MY FRIEEEENDDDDDD ITS NOT LIKE THATTTTT" shit. I even admitted how i felt about the whole situation to her , and I only felt SLIGHTLY better. I mean its been a couple days; I'm pretty much over it. Seeing as how we're gonna be friends for a while from what I see , I don't think this is just gonna go away. In some way , it has to be addressed. How?...Not to sure about that at the moment but I have other things on my plate i need to think about so...eh...

With that said, what's life without the awkward parts...the difficulty....the conversations you don't want to have?...Exactly. It's not life at all.

Whatever though...I got some people to meet next week so that should be fun...

And for the record some events from this week will not be mentioned on the blog...ill say this...I had fun lmao....

I'm GONE!



and go buy that Lloyd - Lessons In Love...not that i did or anything...but its hot!

I finally posted...yayyy I can feel your excitement -_-

So um....yeah...i was looking at my blog like...this shit lacks posts...so maybe i should say something....

then i was like but wait...i cant talk about what i wanna talk about...you know...who i wanna punch in the face...whos chest i wanna grab (in some cases it wouldn't be the first time said jugs were fondled)...dates....

so...i bought it up on a top secret msg board that shall not be named...if i said where it was a man with spiky hair and a sniper scope would put me in perma-sleep...i was also told some fat greasy dude would come find me and make my "shoulders clap" as he puts it ....and i like my chest being in one piece....

WITH THAT SAID....I'm gonna post...I'm gonna talk my shit and deal with the issues later...word....so lemme discuss something thats on my mind at the moment....this upcoming week should be pretty amusing...lets see how much of that i can throw online without singlehandedly destroying my life....i saw some dudes blog where he put some overly graphic shit about his girl wacking him off in the back of his car....the hell kind of post is that? I don't think yall wanna read about my nutfests lmao...SO ILL SPARE YALL THOSE.

K I'm done rambling for the moment heres some vids/music....shut up and be happy i put you on...

White girls getting gooned out at passa passa....when is that not funny?



Don't front...this song is hard (Sorry i was watching Knocked Up)



If this isn't even SLIGHTLY hot...you suck and I dont care about your opinion...


NOW FOR THE MUSIC!!!!!



Funny and real...lmao



Ill.....you peep how i completely switched directions on you right???...I know you did.




If Chris can't blow with this....I give up.

AND FINALLY



How do you make a song about sendin a chick to the free agent pool....and its got so much swag she just might not freak out? (lmao)

Aight...i'll see y'all foolish ramblings coming soon...